Do pastors and their families struggle with life issues like those in their congregation? You bet they do. Pastors and their families are human just like everyone else. We as pastors’ wives struggle spiritually just like any other Christian. Let’s take the masks off and be real on this subject, “There has to be more.”
Struggling? Seems like you are doing great, only to get knocked down? Do you ever feel depressed and discouraged? Do some situations seem hopeless? Yes, yes and yes. Can we be under His wings and still feel and experience all these negative emotions and thoughts? Absolutely? Why? Because we are human and we are still in a body of flesh and we still have a carnal mind.
I want you to know, I get down. I want to give up at times. Give up on what? Life, the Ministry, myself. I don’t have it all together. I have doubts and fears. I desire to be close to God and to be real in my relationship with God, but honestly, sometimes I think I’m just going through the motions. I told God this morning, “There’s got to be more.” I am hungry for more. I am not satisfied with where I am. I want to be more. I want to know more. I want to do more. I want more God and less Christy.
I am not satisfied. This has nothing to do with God lacking anything, but everything to do with what I lack. Yes, I have been given every spiritual blessing from God. Praise Him! But I also read where His strength is made perfect in weakness. Human weakness is nothing new to God. Our weaknesses can actually be a great opportunity for God’s power to be seen and experienced. Do you realize that you can get some of the most “spiritual and knowledgeable” people together to do something great for God and it be little? Yet, you can take the weakest, thirstiest and hungriest among us, and let the Holy Spirit do something huge! Listen, I don’t have much to work with on my own and neither do you, but when we get honest with God and get starving and dehydrated for God, sweet Holy Spirit can take over and really do something great!
May we get there. May we get so dissatisfied with ourselves and hungry for God that we beg Him to come take over. May we learn how we need to be in order to receive more. Like I said, “There’s got to be more.” Oh, there is, but it’s not going to be wrapped up in a pretty little package and hand-delivered to us. We are going to have to get desperate in order to receive it.
He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less. John 3:30 (NLT)
I pray what Christy shared with us today will be taken to heart and we will strive to want more of Him, not just in words, but in our daily relationship that we die to ourselves every day. The journey is so much sweeter when we seek more of Him.
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